That faith which he held to so tightly and lived so vividly would later be a source of struggle and a place of questions. Questions of the heart, of the soul, of the deepest of parts of a human.
It was a little over 8 years ago when Ed Clemens, my barber, was diagnosed with Multiple Myeloma, a disease of the blood. He would begin a journey that continues to this day.
After he learned of his disease, Ed began chemotherapy treatment. It would take him down a path he had not traveled before this time. A time when his body was weakened and his spirit was challenged. With the encouragement of family, friends, prayer warriors and nurses he kept fighting. As he regained strength he saw the light of hope ahead. He was so thankful.
It was during this season that Ed began to wonder… “Why me?” It’s not an unusual question, but each of us come to that place individually. His concept of God and his faith were tested in ways he could not have known before the pressure and pain of treatment.
Then he said, "I thought...Why not me? I am not any better than anyone else." This is how a man of faith faces his night of the soul. He allows himself to question and yet, looks to God for his strength.
Ed's not perfect, he doesn't have to be. His Savior is.